Dear God,
I apologize for letting the things of the world consume me. I received some words for a few people over the past few weeks and I know that I need to correct myself. At first, I was on the defense and in my FLESH but God corrected me and told me that I was wrong and I have to surrender completely to HIM. I am thankful for true men and women of God who care enough about you to correct you and make sure that you reach the level in God that you need to be.
I know you love me because you chasten me. I can’t take your place. I can’t be there for everybody all of the time. I have to move out of your way and step aside. No one or no person (not even family) deserves attention when I haven't spend as much as I need to spend with you. My love and concern for you should be manifested in my actions. It might not be understood by others but they should see and observe it. The time I spend with you is good but it’s not enough. I need to increase the time and lessen the time I spend focusing on making myself available for others. Making myself available to others is good but there needs to be a balance. Aim to focus on me (your God)more and interceding for others through your prayers and time with me. Prayer and intercession can do much more than any words of encouragement can do. Increase your PRAYER TIME and Increase your time in the WORD!!! were your words. True people of God will understand. No social media site, texting, or phone can take your place.
You spoke to me last night and you told me to move out of your way. I didn’t sleep well because I kept hearing you say, “Move out of my way. I need for you to do more. You have been ignoring my voice for long enough. Don’t make yourself available to everyone all of the time in 2012. My glory will I not share with another were your mere words, oh God. Over this break, “Did you use your time wisely? Did you spend as much time as possible with God? You did focus on what I need for you to do. I need you to spend time with me! You are doing things out of ritual but I want more from you. You must let go of the things that hinder you or distract you from hearing my voice."
I am in tears, Lord. In 2012, I will do more, be more, and get back to you, my first love. I took the hand of Jesus at the age of six and I won’t take it back at all. Nothing or no one can take your place. Things are good now. But when I surrender completely, I know things will be so much better. I have to give God all. I can not just give to You or others monetarily but my time is needed. It was the greatest decision I ever made when I accepted the gift of your Son. No longer will I succumb to the world standards when you have all that I need. You are the greatest Father and supporter. You are always there for me. When I wake up at night and when I unable to sleep or when I am in pain, you were there to comfort me and love me. You know the things I never told anyone. You know my downsitting and uprising. I still need much work, oh Lord God. I am not perfect at all. I am very flawed. I need you, Lord God. Like never before. I need to get the place I need to be. I have to surrender all.
Your servant,
Rartajah
